merry christmas! (really)

christmas eve

woke up early so my brother and i can give our parents gifts. they were pretty happy about them (whew). went to shang after lunch and saw angel! went to my grandparents' (mother's side) at around 5. ate with the family at tony roma's for dinner. gift giving at my grandparents'. it was a happy one, since it's my two youngest cousins' first christmas. the floor was flooded with toys. at around 9:30, we went on to church to attend mass with my aunt and my 10 and 11 year-old cousins. it happens to be their third christmas without a father. visited their dad's ashes after mass (they were in the collumbarium of the church. after dropping them off their house, we set off for my grandparents' house (father's side this time) to stay there until around 2. it was really sad there, since it was our first christmas suffering the loss of a loved one.

today

went to grandparents' again for lunch. lot of relatives came. visited my aunts ashes in the afternoon. went to podium afterwards to have dinner and see a movie. this is with my dad's side.

my christmas is a holiday of mixed emotions.

hello's:
everyone (again)- miss you guys :)

in christmas we celebrate birth, but we also remember death. though we grieve over what we have lost, we must also think about what we have gained. christmas is the hope of rebirth, and the hope that He will change what must be changed, and relieve what must be risen again.