I aM NiCa

owwwwwwwwwwwww

2006-01-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

i can't walk.

i hate being accident-prone.

this has been a painful week.

really painful.

first post

2006-01-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

saw this in three blogs today, ph, ro, and anna's. felt like answering it since i have nothing better to do.

1. First and middle name? gianina go (which is supposed to be my real name. long story.)
2. Were you named after anyone? don't think so
3. Do you wish on stars? sometimes
4. When did you last cry? when i read beaches. the ending was touching.
5. Do you like your handwriting? not really
6. What is your favorite food? pizza, pasta and fried stuff
7. What is your birth date? 19th september
8. What is your most embarrassing CD? erm...aaron carter?
9. If you were another person would you be friends with you? i don't know...i'm a bit of an introvert so probably not
10. Do you have a journal? yep. but i don't write in it regularly.
11. Do you use sarcasm a lot? definitely
12. Would you bungee jump? why not?
13. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no. i don't have the patience.
14. Do you think that you are strong? no. both physically and emotionally.
15. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? mocha. just mocha.
16. What is your shoe size? 9, and i'm not exactly proud of it.
17. Red or Pink? both
18. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? it would eat up this whole post if i enumerate.
19. Who do you miss most? my aunt, becaues i know she's not coming back.
20. Who do you call when you're upset? nobody. i just write nonsense stuff on random pieces of paper.
21. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? i'm not wearing pants, i'm wearing shorts. oh, and i have slippers.
22. Last thing you ate? cookies
23. What are you listening to right now? switchfoot
24. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? hmm...i'd probably be the whole box.
25. Last person you talked to on the phone? i don't talk on the phone much so i honestly don't remember.
26. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? depends on the person
28. Favorite drink? soda
29. Favorite sport? badminton and sleeping
30. Hair color? dark brown
31. Eye color? dark brown din
32. Do you wear contacts? nope
34. Last movie you watched? sky high on dvd
35. Favorite day of the year? err...christmas?
36. Scary endings or happy endings? happy...but i don't mind scary once in a while.
37. Summer or winter? both
38. Hugs or kisses? hugs
40. What are you afraid of? scary things my mind creates on its own
41. Do you want people to respond to this? err..whatever?
42. Living arrangements? haven't thought about it
43. What books are you reading? chicken soup, the zahir
44. What's on your mouse pad? don't have one
45. What did you watch last night on TV? a lot
46. Favorite smells? food!
47. Favorite sounds? nature-ish things and passionate music
48. Rolling Stones or Beatles? both
49. AIM or MSN? whatever
50. Do you have a special talent? is ear-wiggling considered special?

merry christmas! (really)

2005-12-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

christmas eve

woke up early so my brother and i can give our parents gifts. they were pretty happy about them (whew). went to shang after lunch and saw angel! went to my grandparents' (mother's side) at around 5. ate with the family at tony roma's for dinner. gift giving at my grandparents'. it was a happy one, since it's my two youngest cousins' first christmas. the floor was flooded with toys. at around 9:30, we went on to church to attend mass with my aunt and my 10 and 11 year-old cousins. it happens to be their third christmas without a father. visited their dad's ashes after mass (they were in the collumbarium of the church. after dropping them off their house, we set off for my grandparents' house (father's side this time) to stay there until around 2. it was really sad there, since it was our first christmas suffering the loss of a loved one.

today

went to grandparents' again for lunch. lot of relatives came. visited my aunts ashes in the afternoon. went to podium afterwards to have dinner and see a movie. this is with my dad's side.

my christmas is a holiday of mixed emotions.

hello's:
everyone (again)- miss you guys :)

in christmas we celebrate birth, but we also remember death. though we grieve over what we have lost, we must also think about what we have gained. christmas is the hope of rebirth, and the hope that He will change what must be changed, and relieve what must be risen again.

2005-12-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

i don't think that i'll be able to post this weekend, so...

merry christmas everybody!!!

sheesh...

2005-12-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

went to g4 with jam, iris, franz, kepot and carlos. went to timezone, starbucks, watched a movie, and they helped me buy my parents' gifts (thnx a lot, guys!). fun and laughs all the way. too bad we weren't complete. we also saw kat, sars, nana, and cielo shopping.

stupid thing just awhile ago. i was sneaking my mom and dad's presents upstairs, while holding the cds anna returned during the xmas party, when my mom started to come down as i was coming up.

my mom (spotting me): ano yan?
me: *no answer
mom (now directly in front of me): ano yan?
me (waving the cds in front of her): mga cd ko.
and i dashed up the stairs.

so what am i planning to do? stay here for a few more hours, go down afterwards, and talk to her about a totally different topic ("uy! jewel in the palace ba yan? true story yan diba?"), praying that she'll forget about our encounter.

hello's:
everybody-hope you're all having a great vacation!
shoti carlos- thank your parents for me. :)

la la la

2005-12-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

went to megamall today. my mom dropped me at powerbooks as usual so i can finsh reading the zahir by paulo coelho, but i wasn't able to. my brother was with his friends and they played computer games, or something. he thinks i must be out of my mind to go to the mall to read. don't care.

i'm at my grandparents' right now. bored to death, which why i'm posting so soon.

"the world's a roller coaster, and i'm not strapped in"
-incubus, wish you were here

ho ho ho...

2005-12-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

can't believe that it's christmas vacation already. i feel so free. there are two downsides though: a. i won't be able to see my friends for some time, and b. i still have a filipino project to do, an english composition to finish, and a geometry test to study for. oh well, i guess i can never be completely happy.

christmas party was fun, much better than last year at least. ma'am mara was with us, which was probably one of the reasons why everyone was so cooperative. went to greenhills with my family afterwards. bought a silicon protector for my shuffle. it's loaded with scratches already. frankly, i haven't felt this happy and contented for a very long time.

that's it i guess. can't think of anything more to say.

hello's:
to everyone- thnx for everything! i'll miss you guys.

i want to be invisible

2005-12-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

i just realized that i haven't had a decent post here for weeks.

ah, what the heck.

2005-12-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorshouldyoureyesbequiz/">What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

weird. my eyes are already brown.

grrr...stuck in my head...

2005-12-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

natapos na ang lahat...heto parin ako...heto't nakatulala...sa mundo....sa mundo....

damn. LSS. can't get it off my head. never thought i'd suffer last song syndrome from a hale song. i kinda like it actually. sweet, but sad.

anyway, went to tagaytay today. visited the nun who was a friend of my aunt. don't know what was the point of travelling at least an hour to visit someone we hardly know, but whatever, it was nice anyway. nature always calms me.

i so do not want to go to school tomorrow...

zzzzzzzz....

2005-12-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

iv'e been really sleepy lately..dunno why...kept on wanting to shut my eyes.

sowee...not really in the mood to blog properly..there's been a lot going on around me...within me...and the voices in my head are in full volume. (psychotic mode)

i'm getting sick and tired of this. it's not funny anymore. it makes me want to explode every freakin' time. it's starting to get damn irritating. i keep telling myself to just let it go, but i can't. i can't do it anymore. it has gone too far.

2005-11-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

i feel happy.

after a week of depression, things are finally beginning to look brighter. i guess sarah was right.

"ang mga problema, sabay-sabay dumarating yan. pero pag natapos na, ang sarap ng feeling."

i'm not sure if that's it exactly, but what the hell. it's the thought that counts.

those tears are all for you. that song is for no one else but you. you made me laugh more than anyone else can. good-bye. i know we will get to see you again someday. one day. i know we'll see you smile again.

depression

2005-11-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

life is just unfair. bad things happen all at once. and when they do, you feel that no one understand what you go through, how much it tears you apart. nobody sees the tears you cry. nobody sees the pain you feel inside. nobody knows that behind a smile is a dying soul, screaming for help...for comfort....for a shoulder to cry on....

i kneel down

get on my knees and pray

that you'll be

in a much better place

where His love

would take all the pain away...

sometimes...i just want to close my eyes and wake up in a world different from this...

field trip

2005-11-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

what we did on the field trip itself:
-visited ocean adventure
-ate at the beach (almost literally)
-visited the lahar buried church that didn't turn out to be lahar buried after all
-drove by a few places i hardly noticed

what we did while travelling
-played cards
-food trip galore!
-pictorial sessions
-slept (one of my favorite pastimes)
-listened to music
-made our own music
-talked about stuff, whether they made sense or not
-sight seeing
-kulitan to the max
-bonding until the last minute we were together (the best part of all)

so which did i enjoy more? don't need to think about the answer.

hellos:
gel and pj- miss you guys. wish you were with us.
the passengers of bus#7- pinakahuli. pinakamasaya.

luck

2005-11-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

my first day back from sem break, there was something in me that i could't explain. i felt elated, like i was walking on clouds throughout the day. i had fun with my friends, happy to be able to talk to them again after nine days. there wasn't much work to do. two teachers were absent. i felt lighthearted, not exactly happy, but fine, like nothing can go wrong.

the next day, yesterday that is, everything was the exact opposite. i have no idea why, but the elated feeling i had the day before vanished. my day wasn't entirely bad, but i felt like rain clouds followed me until i got home. i felt like bad stuff kept on happening. i felt like everything was going wrong.

today, it was, i think, a little bit of both. i had both bad and good luck. i'm not sure whether i had more bad than good, or the other way around, but i had them both nevertheless.

now what is the whole point of writing this post? i'm just wondering, does bad luck really exist? is it real? is luck something we should rely on? if bad stuff keep happening, one coming after the other, is that bad luck? more often than not, i find myself thinking things like "i feel lucky today, i must've done something right", or "what an unlucky day. what did i do wrong?". i feel like i'm starting to entrust my fate to luck. and i don't think i like it.

i know i'm weird, thinking about stuff not worth thinking about, wondering about things i should just leave alone. but i admit it; i'm just strange that way. i can't help it. sometimes, i lie awake at night wondering about almost everything, no matter how ridiculous, or insane they may be.

alrighty. i think i've written everything i want to write. i'll go do my english homework now.

finally...

2005-11-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

Woke up yesterday morning to find out that we were going to manila east and stay there overnight. The best thing that has happened since sem break started. Went with my mom’s side of the family. Just got home this afternoon. Went swimming, sliding, kayaking, stuff you usually do at resorts. And, oh yeah, I ate a lot, considering we just stayed there for a day. Went to my grandparents’ house afterwards, and I continued eating (a lot). I guess this wasn’t such a lousy vacation after all.

My dad’s watching mgb right now. This weird psychic dude is saying that most people that are possessed by disturbed spirits, or sees them, are creative people.
hmmm. i think I’m switching to analytical thinking from now on. No, wait, I can’t do that. My analytical skills are zero. Ah well, I don’t have much thinking skills anyway, creative or analytical. Daydreaming skills are more my speed, i.e., staring blankly into space and oblivious to the world. ;-)

2005-11-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

What Language Should You Learn?

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................

happy halloween...

2005-10-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

this has been some day...studied math...stared at the tv...tried to do the filipino assignment (copied the questions, stared at it for a rough 5 minutes, stared at the book for another 5 minutes, and picked up the remote to change the channel on the tv)...if a person could die of boredom, i would've joined the ghosts right now. we're supposed to go to baguio today, but my grandad got hospitalized again. arggh...this is all so crazy. i want to enjoy this sem break, but i'm not enjoying. i want to go somewhere...anywhere but here...i want to be with my friends...i hate sitting here not doing anything worthwhile and wishing i was in a different place...

tsk. some holiday. how is it different from an ordinary day from my ordinary life?
i miss my friends. everybody at school, and everything at school, well, i except the actual lessons, i guess.

Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako

ng panahon

Di na nagbago bawat araw

pare-pareho

parang kahapon

-Tumatakbo

Mojofly

breaking the silence

2005-10-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

wahaha...i'm back...antagal kong di nagupdate, sabog kc tong blog ko eh, i shouldn't have changed the lay-out, now it's all weird and deformed.
well anyway, sem break's here, the longest we've had for quite some time, i believe. better enjoy it before time catches up and throws us back to reality in the form of school and lessons. ;-) field trip is on nov. 18! yey! can't wait.
okay...i can't think of anything to say anymore...i think i'll go try to figure out what's wrong with this lay-out...

2005-10-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

grabe...long silence dito...tagal di nagupdate eh...
nyways...tpos na ang exams..finally...don't want to recall them anymore...don't even want to see the results...oh well...at least di pa formal classes tomorrow...
forgive the extremely short post....i'm just feeling really lazy today...i'll try to make a longer post tomorrow night, or the night after tomorrow night...or the night after...*delirious*

hello to-everyone! ^_^
super belated to sars, hris, chester, and gel!

2005-10-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

i know this is a little late, but...

CONGRATS RO!!! YOU ROCK!!!!

wahahahaha...so what happened today....

this a.m.-first friday mass ate up most of our morning. played guitar with ph, ro, and nina. sbi ng bro ko la dw narinig samin, pero whatever, masaya pa rin ^_^

this p.m-chem...boring lesson...chinese...laughtrip! we had this dialogue thingy again...my partner was anna. kulet ni matt-jake! wahahaha! social....we just talked to sir sison about the UN parade...netherlands kmi ni yanyan!!! waaaaahhh!!! i don't wanna be a milkmaid!!!!!!!

hello to:
angel-waaaaaa...mis u gel! la kong masundot eh! get well soon!
yanyan-little dutch boy!!!! wahahahahahahaha!!!
pjam-d ko knain ung gulay ni lau sher! wahehehehehehehe
ro-thnx for the company knina...and sa chuckie! hahaha INSANE!! ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JHANEL!!!
Happy bday to my mom, too, even if she doesn't touch the pc! :-D

2005-09-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

kind fate has turned her back

on my dying soul

i've had enough darkness

i've had enough of wandering

in this dark, lonely cave called life

i want to see light again

i want to see who i really am

me, who's buried underneath

a mountain of lies and pretending

me, who's been shunned in a corner

struggling to stay alive

me, who's been weeping silently

in a world of madness and misery

with no one to lean on

with no hand to hold

i want to see light again

i want to see who i really am

me, who's completely alone

in a hell of nameless faces...

don't take it too seriously...that's not how i feel...it just sort of came to me...i am not alone, as far as i'm concerned, i love my friends, they're the ones who've been keeping me sane. :-D

2005-09-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

muchakanapay jammed today at roanne's house, kulet sobra... we also ate...made more music...laughtrip sa ym ni roanne...saya sobra ^_^ wrote a song...ro made the melody and i wrote the words, then we tried it out with the guitar and drums, then ro called anna up and made her listen, haha, really hope we'll be able to pull it off...playing instruments using the sabog sound system of the gym can be a bit of a risk...but whatever...muchakanapay still rocks!!! wahahahahahahaha!!!! ^_^

2005-09-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

this am-
teacher's day celebration today...sang a stupid chinese song in the hall of hope when the teachers were having lunch...performed with ph, ro, and jela afterwards. nkk2wa mga teacher, looked like they really had fun in the bingo thingy and the karaoke (idol sir sison and sir bulalacao!)

this pm-
awards-thingy. ma'am mara won best teacher award! glee club performed the song we've been practicing...i presented the singer award with xeric (mrs. day won)...dance troupe performance was awesome (nice work, guys!)...the seniors presented a cool performance...and me and sam sang the prayer (in a capella, the minus one went bezerk) for the closing prayer. i'm so tired and my feet hurt.

current status- eating a slice of my brother's dome cake while trying to shoo the shitty mood away...grr...have to do assignment for ma'am cadag pa pala...practice with ro and jake tomorrow for ro's mutya ng agham talent portion...MUCKHAKANAPAY! haha...eww ><

belated happy birthday to my "beautiful" brother (9/25)

2005-09-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

do you ever get the feeling of being pissed at the world for no reason?

dunno why...but this shitty mood has been following me for days now...sometimes i just want to fall asleep and wake up in another worlld...a world far away from here...where nothing goes wrong...where there's no suffering nor desire...where music would play forever...where comfort comes in your doorstep when you seek it...

i guess i'm just at a phase where i'm tired of living this life...of doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over..........arrgghhh....i hate melancholy.

2005-09-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me......

this a.m.-laughtrip-slash-recitation at math....noli discussions at filipino....english...more discussions...music, test then guitar...hahaha ^_^

this p.m.-chem...mind-pounding test...chinese hanggang dismissal...practiced the stupid chinese song again...i think we're improving, actually, at least our voices are now acceptable for the human ears...haha joke lng III ren!!! ^_^

nywei, thnx to everyone who greeted...'specially my friends...you made my birthday extra special!! :-D

2005-09-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today...my head was spinnnig when i woke up...and my fever came back...so my parents didn't let me go to school and took me to the doctor....oh well, good thing half day lng ngyon, so i didn't miss the tests for chem and social studies...didn't do much today...just basically sleeping and trying not to throw up...

i'm coughing like hell while typing this post...hay...i hate getting sick.

2005-09-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

i wasn't able to post last night because we got home late. we came from the hospital, relieved that the nightmare we all dreaded but, fortunately, didn't happen.

we were eating dinner at market market, with my mom's side of the family, and yup, we were cousins of all ages. my mom and i just got back from the bathroom when we all saw the same thing: my grandfather, slumped in his chair, unconcious, yet eyes wide open. everybody froze, except for my little cousin's nanny, who ran to my grandfather and tried to carried him. chaos insued. my dad and my uncles, after snapping out of their state of shock, carried my grandfather out of the restaurant and the waiters dashed after them. the guards talked to my mom and my aunts, as we watched the van speed off, leaving the bewildered people surrounding them behind. it was the worst feeling in the world; my knees went weak, my head started to spin, and i thought my heart was going to burst out of my ribs. we didn't know what will happen next, if it really was over. i know that my grandfather's face last night will haunt me forever. it looked, there was only one word to describe it, lifeless. our moms instructed us kids to go home with the remaining car, and they'll try to catch up with my uncles and my dad, but as we made our way toward the parking lot, a phone call told us that my grandfather had regained conciousness on the way to the hospital, that it was alright.

the next moments had been a blur, and before i knew it, i was in the waiting area in the emergency room, with my 4 year old cousin. because of the confusion, we got separated from my brother and our other cousins and they wound up going home. my dad, who was the one trying to wake up my grandfather when he was charged to the hospital, was still shaking when he told us what happened, and i know that he had thought the same thing we all did the moment my grandfather's head dropped limply on his frail shoulders: that he had finally given in.

my grandfather's still in the hospital today, and he's talking again, and laughed amusedly at all the panic he had caused last night. come to think of it, we all looked back at last night with much ease, now that things are back to where they used to be. the doctor said he had suffered a mild stroke because of his blood pressure, i think. i'm just happy, like the rest of the family, that my grandfather is still here, and still not ready to say good-bye.

2005-09-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

whoops, nakalimutan kong magwhite!!! wahahahha!

2005-09-09T21:03:00.000+08:00

distribution of cards today...my rank is no. 3, but i don't think i deserve it. i can't thoroughly enjoy it, because a part of me knows that the plus points from sabayan gave me a huge boost. even my parents think so, so i'm not exactly that happy. oh well...

this am- recitation in math again. i'm now raising my hand as much as possible, whether i think my answer is right or wrong. i wasn't able to attend filipino because i practiced with sam and sir b. english...discussed the weird love poems from the renaissance period...then library hour, without the library, since it's under renovation.

this pm- laughtrip ung test sa chem, my partner was mark. we managed to pass the first part, through good guesses and "bahala na"s. continuation on monday. practiced the stupid song again on chinese time. aggrr! i really don't like where things are going. well, "bahala na!"...wahahaha!

so, all in all, not exactly an extraordinary day, but it was happy just the same. ^_^

2005-09-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

today was really fun...

this am- i entered the science drawing contest with pj, angel, anna, ro, jim ang, daphne and kervin. the real contest was supposed to be yesterday but since pasaway ang section namin, they gave us a chance. we had the physics room to ourselves. we were so noisy, especially me and roanne, who kept on bursting in to weird songs. i drove ro crazy by singing best of you by foo fighters, which is a perfect candidate for LSS. anyway, my work was all sucky, but everyone else's were really good. i hope one of us wins!
afterwards, we went down to our classrooms to celebrate mama mary's birthday. it was a fun-filled hour of eating, laughing, balloon-flying, and singing.

this pm- we bombarded ma'am capungcol with questions about polarity of molecules during chem time. and after one hour, i still don't get it. chinese time...test...i guess i did fine...whatever...i don't care anymore, anyway...social studies was interesting, as usual. sir sison told us a few stories from greek literature. they were really fun to listen to. then glee club..today was the audition for male members. we were all desperately looking for guys who want to try! then during the audition, i went down to 3 zhi and watched them decorate their room, i think they're doing the top ten, but i'm not exactly sure. i went back up the music room to practice with sam afterwards. our dreaded song number is on saturday.

release of cards tomorrow...

msgs to people:

ro, pgel, anna, jim ang, daph, kervin- you guys did great today! good luck nalang satin!

chaka j.lu- ayan na po. white na ang ginamit ko. chaka!!!!

franz & matt- congrats! (don't ask why)

miss mutya- I HAVE ANOTHER CONFESSION TO MAKE, I'M NO FOOL!!!!! wahhaahahaha!!!

2005-09-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

HaPpY bDaY kEpOt AnD bUdDhA!!!!!!

i'm reading noli me tangere right now...it's not so bad really...the story looks really good....

2005-09-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

wala lng...my day went by fine...went to sm megamall with my family...bought another book, actually, a compilation of the first three books of a series of unfortunate events...i'm just really curious about it. went to my grandparents' afterwards. my relatives from tacloban were there. my brother had his fourth guitar lesson. i ate a lot of junk food again. i watched roughly three hours of tv. i spent time with my cousins. we are now composed of two teenagers, two pre-teens, 4 children, one infant, and one baby. you have no idea how alive it can get. ate dinner at greenhills, went back, the adults had more conversations, i watched more tv, and then home. there's not much work to do so i can pretty much relax. i just hope days like this would keep on coming more often.

2005-09-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

is it wrong to feel alone

even if a hundred faces surround you?

is it wrong to wish

that you can just close your eyes

and never have to open them again?

is it wrong to live

in your own little world

where you can never see

the shadow of pain?

is it wrong to weep

at the face of despair?

i don't want to remember

don't want to recall

things i'd rather

forever ignore

i am a victim

a captive

a prisoner

of my own illusions

of my own pain

i am the reason

why i'm suffering now....

i am the creator

of what i want to destroy now...

2005-09-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

i can't believe that the happiness i felt yesterday evaporated this fast....

as i expected, we fell behind on a lot of work, especially in chem and math...everything's back to normal now, and i can't afford to miss any more classes...i'm already dying in geometry as it is...

this am- recitation in math...i don't know a thing, thank a God i wasn't called...but i'm still struggling...no computer...confession...discussion in english, continued second half of a test, good thing we were exempted from the first half...and for religion, sir gave us the freedom to ask questions about religion that bother us, i joined PJAMEL and FRANZ in thinking up things to ask! wahahahahaha!

this pm- lab activity in chem...boring discussion in chinese...discussion in social studies with a twist of sir sison's high school life...and then glee club...

another thing i can't believe...september is already here...ang bilis talaga...

oh and by the way...i wrote this during english time...result of utter boredom...

a weeping rose, you wither before me

your petals are growing weary

your stem is going weak

waiting to perish

you must be feeling my pain.

the dew on blood-stained velvet

are like my fallen teardrops

a vibrant scarlet

turning to charcoaled black

you must be feeling my pain.

your once firm roots, slowly,

slipping out of powdered soil

soon, you will lie on the ground

being battered by the storm

shunned by the rays

of new life

nobody knows

that you're fading away

nobody knows

that you're dying in my pain.

guess what happened after i finished it...i had no idea on what we're supposed to be talking about...heehee...hangover...

2005-08-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

WE WON!!! WE WON!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE WE WON!!!!

the bruises, the sweat, the scratches...it all disappeared at that moment...everything really was worth it after all.

our call time this morning was 4 am (as in dawn), but i arrived at around 4:30. we left for st. joseph at around 7:30. there were 8 contestants and we were the fourth to perform, which was good, because the middle is always the best. we were all so happy when we were announced as champions. we all gave our best, i'm sure. ma'am de vega was ecstastic. i'm so happy for all of us, especially for the fourth year, now that they had the chance to continue spas's streak before they left school.

when we got home, we did our piece for the high school department and the faculty. it was really strange, not to mention distracting, to perform in front of familiar faces. good thing i didn't make any obvious mistakes. :-) after that, we all just basically rested in the hall of hope and slept on the stage.

now, i shudder at the thought of all the work we left behind. it was like i entered another world, and i'm back home again. even if some part of me thinks that all of this is just unreal, nothing in this world could ever make me forget this day. well, maybe terminal amnesia could, but that's beside the point. ;-)

2005-08-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

my family went to the last screening of charlie and the chocolate factory last night at robinsons galleria. the mall was practically closed when we arrived. the movie was okay, although i found johnny depp a little too creepy...okay, i found him extremely creepy, from the disturbing haircut to the weird voice that he uses throughout the movie.

sabayan practice today, supposed to be 7:30-11, but i left at 9:30. went to tagaytay with my mom's side of the family. had lots of fun, went horseback riding and food shopping..two of the many things i love about life...animals and food. ^_^

just read franz's latest entry about the backpipol. nice work, yanyan. you really do have a lot of time in your hands. wahaha! joke :-D

i was able to slip through national bookstore last night before it closed. the big sale they hold every year is finally here. my mom buys me one book when it comes around. this year's book? veronika decides to die. still not finished reading it. anna, alchemist nalalng hihiramin ko! hihi ^_^

agrr...back to school tomorrow...may research pa pala sa mapeh...hay...

2005-08-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

Linggo ng Wika celebration today...filipiniana, games, sabayan, blah blah blah....generally, it was fun today..i didn't get to see much of my friends though...

I'm sooo tired...forgive the short post...i think my kneecaps are turning purple...

Monologue today...Audwin helped me with my cat face...thank God it's all over...the math remedial thingy...the freakin' monologue...sabayan nlng tlga...

Oh, and by the way...if you're reading this...

Pjamel- di niyo ako napanood! wahahahahaha! even na tayo! di ko rin kayo napanood eh!
Franz- kainis! di kita napanood na nag maria goes to market! la bang nagvideo?
Anna-veronika decides to die!

2005-08-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

Top 5 Things That Are Worrying Me Right Now:

1.Bonus quiz on math tomorrow, 6:30 am (afraid i might not make it)
2.Bonus quiz on math tomorrow, 6:30 am (afraid that i do make it, but not get enough points to pass my periodical test)
3.Social Studies monologue (still not ready)
4.Failing Math grades, i.e. naghihingalo na ang scores ko
5.Sabayan (just worried, period.)

Additional worry: we're falling behind on homework.

Why do i have the feeling that the 2nd quarter is going to be twice as hard as the first?

2005-08-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

no classes today!! too bad i didn't get to enjoy it. slept the whole morning, sabayan practice in the afternoon. my feet didn't hurt so much this time, i guess the socks really do help.

finished reading paulo coelho's by the river piedra i sat down and wept. i didn't cry, but i spent a great deal of time staring blankly into space after reading. anna's right, it really is beautiful. i have been made a fan of coelho. planning to read the alchemist next, pero di raw masyado maganda. oh well, bahala na.

i still don't have a monologue ready, and my costume is still not complete. and i'm supposed to do the monologue tomorrow. i don't think i'll be able to sleep tonight.

"Love is a trap. When it appears, we see its light, not its shadows."

ang saya saya

2005-08-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

while i'm typing these words, i'm also studying math and researching for information about a catlike goddess from ancient egypt, all at the same time. geez, i hate multi-taking.

nywei, had lots of fun today. went to rp with the BACKPIPOL and MELISSA, to celebrate the belated birthday of our celebrant, IRIS. ate at yellow cab (had fun with the black pepper), and went bowling (had fun with everybody's names). thanks a lot iris! sorry i had to leave early.

i can't believe our historical idol-thingy is on tuesday already. i hope we can plead our case to sir sision. i've done absolutely nothing to get ready. and it's suppoosedly our project grade.

"corresponding parts of congruent triangles are equal."

i now officialy declare that geometry just isn't my thing.

2005-08-19T20:06:00.000+08:00

i changed my skin, as you all might have noticed...i don't know why exactly, maybe i grew tired of the dots :-) it's a bit dark, i know, but i like the moonlight. :-)

sabayan practice today, again. kkpagod parin, pero masaya. supposed to be no classes today, but we stayed in school from morning till afternoon. wasn't able to do assignments. tinatamad pa ako ngaun, so bukas nlng cguro...i'm just sooo tired...i just hope all our hard work will be worth it.

hmm...it's raining again...after almost a week of sunny days....i guess that's how life really works...sometimes you're under the sun...sometimes you're drenched in rain...

i think i'm going insane...

2005-08-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

soooo sleepy....

2005-08-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

practiced for sabayang pagbikas today...kkpagod...i can't feel my feet...that's pretty much what we did today...
i think i failed math...only 5 passed...strike that...i know i failed math...i'm not surprised...i failed in quizzes, exercises, seatworks...everything! how lovely!

my mind is so not working properly today.

all rejoice! exams are over! ^_____^

2005-08-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

hay...finally...i thought these 3 days would never end...

academic exams:

august 15, mon
filipino: not good. that's all i'm gonna say. i'm not gonna recall. it makes me feel sick, trying to remember.

social studies: okay, i guess. mixed up the countries on the last part, though.

august 16, tues
chem: screwed up on the laws/principles/theories-thingy.

english: my head throbbed painfully on the sentence constructions.

august 17, wed
math: in the name of the Father...and of the Son...

computer: *sigh* i love technology.

and that's what pretty much happened in the last three days of insanity. we're all back to normal. petrified at the thought of test scores. sabayan practice tomorrow. and now i can spend a great deal of time doing what i do best: sleeping and/or doing nothing. ^_^

2005-08-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

Strangers
They’re just strangers
Who are they
To tell you what to do?

Faces
Just nameless faces
You shouldn’t let them
Step all over you

You feel afraid, you feel ashamed
But that’s who you really are
You know

*You can run
But you can’t hide
From what’s coming out of your eyes
One day soon
You’ll realize
Who that person is inside

People
Telling you who you should be
What are you
Some actor in their run-down plays?

Can’t you see
You should listen to only yourself?
Don’t you know
That when you gave in you also fell? (*)

You’re the only one
Who can keep you alive
You’re the only one
Who can control your life… (*)

One day soon
You’ll realize
That you’re the person inside.

Wrote this song this afternoon...it just popped out of my head while playing guitar...

I've had enough of studying!!!!

just about ready to collapse....

2005-08-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

just finished studying social studies...dming klangang tandaan...haven't started with filipino yet...

exams so far:

Day1- August 11
Chinese: errr...i don't know....i honestly don't know how i did...it's just...i don't know...whatever...!

Day2-Today
Religion: ...i guess i did okay, but i'm not that confident, heck, i'm never confident, it's all about the history of the church...blah blah blah...
PE/Health: dreadful. i didn't study those stupid diseases. i don't know a single one. there goes 10 points down the drain.
Music: incredibly short...about two pages, and they're not even full, but hey, who's complaining?

And now here come the major subjects...haayyy...i don't really want to mess this up...but i'm just sooo lazy...and it's been raining all day...i just want to stay in bed and think about nothing...

Room assignments are here...room 402. Ma'am Chua!!! Belated happy bday to ARGELIQ, my favorite bully!! ^_^

Still don't feel like studying...maybe i'll just continue tomorrow..

Exams!!!

2005-08-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

Wahhhh...periodical tests are here! Hope I survive this week and the next!! Lalo na math & chem!! Waahhhhhh! I suck at freakin' numbers!!!!

This a.m.-
review sa math...proving and reasoning! headache attack!! filipino...poetry writing...klangan may drawing pa!! english...test on sentence construction...headache on full blow....religion...sir baltazar was absent, again...answered brain-squeezing questions on the history of the church-whatever, sir germie sub...didn't do it seriously, was trying to finish poem....and then...rrriinnggg!!! dismissal time! the only time i was truly happy!!!!

This p.m.-
studied chinese...guitar...studied chinese...ate...studied chinese...tv...

oh, and i almost forgot...HAPPY BDAY IRIS!!!!!!!! xorie di ako nkapunta knina!!!!

...headache...

2005-08-08T20:02:00.000+08:00

di nkpagupdate yesterday...my head hurts...waaaahhh....

yesterday-
went to my cousins' house, jamming kmi dun. our parents got so tired of us playing songs that cause "noise pollution"! haha! that's pretty much what happened that's worth posting, i.e. anything besides sleeping, eating, and doing nothing. ;-)

this a.m.-
hmm....test...test...discussion...more tests...and, oh yeah...math BINGO!!!! haha! that was fun, if we didn't have to think so much. Groupwork in English with SARS and RYE! Whahaha! saya sobra! galing ni sarah eh! scholar! ^_^

this p.m.-
group review test-thingy at chem, with JAM, MAME, and JOANNE. We weren't excellent, but it was tons of fun! hmm...chinese...crumpled-paper war with FRANZ and PJ! lagot ka Yanyan! sama ng tingin ni lau sher sayo! ahihihihi!!!!! erm...computer...our server was being reformatted so i spent one hour watching SARS make her project! wahahahaha!

geez, exams are drawing dangerously nearer...and i feel like i don't know a thing...especially in math and chem...waaaahhh, i know i'm gonna fail!

awhile ago i though i felt extremely down for absolutely no reason...but i think i already found one...

...at sinong di mapapasayaw sa ulan...

2005-08-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

wahaha...can't believe that song is stuck in my head...pano, it's been raining all day...but i don't mind, i love rain...^_^

had an awesome day today! celebr8ion ng bday ni Arg (Aug. 11) and Reg (today)! Went to megamall, andami namin! thnx a lot guys! klangan pa bng isa-isahin ung mga sumama? katamad eh! wahaha, xori!

tinakasan ko journalism seminar ngayon! wahaha! hopefully nobody saw me in school this morning!

been working on a new song...under renovation pa, gaya ng blog na 'to! kaya wala pang kuwenta!

well nywei, have to study for music pa, all those weird indian terms...got to go! happy bday reggie! advanced happy bday arg and iris (Aug. 10)! binunyag ko na ang mga bday niyo! wahahahaha!!!!

....

2005-08-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

You are Queen Meritaten, wife of the engmatic Smenkhkare (whoever he was) and eldest daugther of Akhenaten. You were always your parents' favorite: responsible, beautiful and obidient. Your time in the spotlight may be brief, however, so make the most of your fifteen minutes of fame, Mayati!

Found this in Anna's blog...don't know who that queen is, but she sounds pretty cool.

May tagboard na ako! Finally! Tnx a million Ro! ^_^

Tag kyo!

HeLLo WoRLd....

2005-08-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

er...hello...i am nica...gumawa ako ng blog kasi...wala lang, it looked fun...^_^ dti may blog na ko, kya lng, tinamad, tpos ngaun, sinipag ulet...ahihi, nywei, tag nlng kyo o magcommment...bye!